Loop

I have to have some balance. If I don't believe that things will be better, that I'll be where I want to be in the future, then I will just spiral downward until I'm completely consumed by depression. I use this insatiability as the fuel that ignites my resolve. A double edged sword indeed. I cannot reach satisfaction, for my purpose is achieving significance. And to my discomfort, I'm fully aware my search for significance through wealth is illusory; I will never grasp the unattainable. Yet to fully acknowledge this would again only sway me into a downward spiral, so I remain forever enveloped in this loop.